oh crap

youre a joke.

when you think you know someone and you have to realize that you dont. at all. how do you react?
what do you feel? disappointment? fear? sadness?
i feel nothing. i feel that since i never actually knew that person my life can go on. because until then i was living in a lie.

and what if after a while you get together again. like you meet in a pub, concert, in the street, you have mutual friends, you hang out. what do you do? talk with him/her? smile? ignore?
you feel bad. and awkward.

but you know.. you at least thought once you know him. so why avoid talking? just go there: hey whats up. the ball is on his side. see what happens.
i just want to let you know that nothing will happen. so dont even try. because i dont need you anymore :]

_______RANDOM STUFF BELOW_______

- twilight <34567
- my friday
- vienna in 6 days

& dont forget:
"you make me laugh youre my better half, though you weight twice as much.."

confessions of a not-at-all drama queen

im not just writing a blog but even delete posts. take that! i can improve :)

i did feel like hell during these days but ive decided no one means that much. ill have to live with myself until i die. and obviously ill be alone with that so ive figured im better of alone. i mean you can still be around i wont mind :)
but thanks for everything. and remember:

EYES WIDE OPEN Ü

picture your life

FINALMENTE

achei a universidade perfeita *-*
wooo! no kidding. i WANT to go here. budapest here i come :)

http://elte-portugal.uw.hu/

how i hate skirts.

littlest things.

just a cold autumn day. just didnt want to go to school.
just wanted to sleep. just wanted to meet people.
just hang out. just have some drinks in the afternoon.
just a walk in the forest. just talking about anything basically.
just have fun. just be underdressed. just be cold at night.
just feel high. just be ourselves.

just a regular friday.

how was school?

THURSDAY MORNING.

i woke up. i had my green melon tea, i washed my hair. i was listening to mozart.
and then i threw up.